Confession time: I haven’t done morning pages in a week, and this past Saturday and Sunday I had to lower my word quota from 1,000 words to 500. Sigh.

That said, I’m still making steady progress and writing every day. The WIP just cracked 20k words, and my goal is 80k. (Although it doesn’t feel 1/4 done yet…) So anyway, I’m really not going to beat myself up. And even if I thought I should, frankly I’m just too tired. The Week of Chaos is, in fact, chaotic.

(Plus I just balled my eyes out over tonight’s heartbreaking and wonderful episode of Life Unexpected. Beating myself up now would just be mean.)

Instead I’m going to shower, read, write, and go to bed early. Because the Week of Chaos continues tomorrow. It is a whole week, after all.

Meanwhile, I leave you with this:

• Although we sat way up in the press box, I did take pictures and video at the Houston rodeo. This year they added an event called “mutton busting,” and it was ADORABLE. 5 year olds hugging sheep as they run out of a chute? Can we all say AWWW?

• YA author Justine Larbalestier blogged about “Writing as a Career v. Writing as an Identity”:

I have been a writer since I first learned how as a small child. I have been an author since I sold my first novel. There was a thirty year gap between the two. During the time that I was a writer-not-an-author I wrote hundreds of poems and short stories, and beginnings of novels, and two novels. That writing was a huge part of who I was. When I didn’t write I was miserable. When I was writing a lot I was joyous.

(Psst, Sonja! I thought of you when I was reading this.)

• Last but not least, the ever-hilarious XKCD illustrates why “Porn For Women,” isn’t.

19 responses to “Feeling human after all”

  1. Les Avatar

    I’m so depressed, I’ve gotten absolutely no writing done at all lately. I don’t think I’m going to hit my 100k goal for May 30th unless I write a grand a day for the next 2 months. That said, I’m trying not to kick myself for it since I’m trying to get DK off the ground. What’s a girl to do?

    The mutton busting video is to die for cute.

  2. Jay Eckert Avatar

    Oh – don’t sweat lowering the magic wordcount threshold. 500 words is better than 300 words which is better than zero! And I’m usually at a 500 words/night pace, so I feel better knowing there’s other people like me. :-)

    And on top of that, I’ve nominated you for an award over on my blog.
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  3. Kimberly Franklin Avatar

    Poor Kristan! I hope your chaotic week goes by super fast. : )
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  4. Kristan Avatar

    Seriously, you can’t be upset with yourself! DK is an amazing endeavor! Once it’s gotten its legs under, you can go back to writing and find the right balance.

    AW, you said I’m funtastic! MADE MY DAY!

    Me too. Do you have a time turner, like Hermione? (Or wait, did those things only make MORE time?)

  5. Sonja Avatar

    Psst, Kristan! I thought of me when I was reading this, too!

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  6. Sarah Avatar

    So, morning pages…yeah I did that for a few days, but I find it distracting while I’m writing the novel. You are doing SO well, Kristan, 500 wds/day is very, very good! Having that flexibility is great too for when you’re less busy and you have a chance to write more.
    love the quote by Justine.
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  7. elissa janine Avatar

    aw, 500 words daily is a great goal…you can *always* overshoot! are you doing morning pages, as in the artist’s way? I think I did that some time ago, but my mornings are no longer mine. now I do all my writing at midnight! :) good luck on chaos week!

  8. Alex Avatar

    I love hearing you and your mom laugh in that sheep-hugging video. :-) That’s all my brain can put together after traveling the entire day.

  9. Kristan Avatar

    Thanks for the encouragement, made me smile. :) I agree, 500 words a day is good. I guess I was just a little bummed having to “tone down” my weekend quota for the first time.

    Elissa Janine-
    Yeah, haha, as in The Artist’s Way. But my “morning” pages were really afternoon or evening pages. My morning isn’t mine either. :P

    Aww. Well, I’m glad you’re back safe and I hope you had a lovely trip!

  10. Jon Avatar

    It’s the writing that counts, no matter how much or how little, right? As long as you’re chipping away with a plastic spoon, you’re still finishing the sculpture.
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  11. Samantha Bennett Avatar

    I’ve had to lower word count goals during chaotic weeks. Not fun but at least you’re writing every day. Hold onto that! And when you get blue, just think of mutton busting. :)
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  12. Rachele Alpine Avatar

    I think it’s good to set an amount of wrting and routine every day, but I also think you shouldn’t beat yourself up over it. There are going to be times when you feel like writing and times when maybe you need a break (like this weekend for you). It sounds like you’re working hard and you’re getting a lot more writing done than I have lately, go yay! :)
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  13. Kristan Avatar

    Haha, nice analogy! Yes, I guess my plastic spoon will do. :)

    HAHA will do!

    Yeah, me and ms didn’t split up, but we’re going through a lull. He’s being pretty understanding, though. Now if only he could buy me chocolate…

  14. Liz Czukas Avatar

    What a fabulous quote! I’m sorry your week of chaos is kickin’ your booty. You are usually so diligent about your writing goals, I’m sure the universe will forgive you for easing up a bit as you get through a tough week.

    Hang in there. You’ll find something out of this experience that will end up informing your writing somehow, I know it.

    – Liz
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  15. Nel Avatar

    500 words a day sounds good to me! Good luck :)

    PS. Thank you for your comment on my blog! x.
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  16. Rebecca @ Diary of a Virgin Novelist Avatar

    Oh, I can sooooo relate. My week of chaos ends today and i can’t wait! I miss writing.
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  17. Angie Avatar

    Mutton busting OMG too cute and LMAO on XKCD. FYI your heading resonated with me…

    WTH all these acronyms, IMO it’s insane

    ASDFJK the end
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  18. floreta Avatar

    i saw that comment earlier and LOVED it :D

    also, morning pages.. that’s a concept from the book The Artist’s Way. Are you reading it?

    i just LOVE your workspace from your earlier entry :D
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  19. Kristan Avatar

    No, I’m not reading it. I’ve just heard the morning pages suggested and wanted to give it a try. Have you read it?