Me (on Twitter): Taking my multi vitamin with Pepsi seems… oxymoronic.
Friend: I feel the same way when taking my birth control pill with beer.

For all my big talk on Wednesday, I didn’t kick the funk. In fact, it got much worse that night, and I was still pretty “funky” yesterday morning. But last night I talked to Andy, cried a bit, and finally, finally felt better. The worst had passed.

(And no, I never figured out what the cause of it was. Weird.)

Sleeping 10 hours sealed the deal and now I’m good as gold again. Well, maybe not gold. But like, pyrite at least.

The funny thing is, because I was feeling so down, I gave myself the day off yesterday. I wasn’t going to do anything but the bare minimum I had to do to get through the day — not even write. However, by 1 p.m., I felt incomplete. Unsettled. Unsatisfied.

So I wrote, and I felt better.

I’m not gonna get all omg-it’s-destiny-can’t-you-see-I’m-totes-a-writer?! on y’all. But hey, it’s a good sign, right?

(By the way, I do not actually say “totes.”)

Also a good sign: after applying to be the “voice of the Unpublished” for Writer Unboxed, I did not win the position, but I was a finalist, and I was asked to be a Guest contributor a few times each year! The company I’m in over there is INCREDIBLE. Case in point: this week agent Donald Maass posted a great bit about inspiring awe. Since reading it, I haven’t been able to stop thinking about the four questions he asked, and how they apply to my story (as well as my life).

Speaking of my story, the WIP is marching on. I’m at about 27,000 words, and my goal is to get to 30,000 by the end of this weekend. Truth be told, the quality of my writing in this first draft is waaaaay below my norm, and that’s hard for me. I’m used to reading my writing and thinking, “Hey, I like that!” Definitely not the case here…

But the flip side is that I’m 1/3 of the way through the first draft in just 8 weeks! Not as fast as I’d like, but waaaaay faster than my norm.

Thus I can already see where I want to push myself on my next WIP*. In other words, I can look behind me and see how I’ve improved as a writer, and I can look ahead of me to see how much more I will continue to improve. It’s a nice place to be, here in the middle of the road. Even if I sometimes get frustrated or impatient with the journey.

*Specifically: 1,000-2,000 daily word minimum, but also better quality writing.

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